Happy Birthday Luke!

HAPPY 4 MONTHS LUKE!

4 months ago today I experienced a joy that can only be topped by God's love and salvation...the birth of my son.

As for Kristin and I, we haven't posted in quite sometime...actually, it's been a long time. We have not abandoned the blog, but we are in a teaching season from the Lord. He is doing amazing things in both mine and Kristin's life as we receive His rich blessings every day.

I will say, watch out world because my wife is on fire! God has blessed me with gifts and talents to lead worship and He is opening many doors...but...God is giving Kristin some of the most incredible revelation of Scripture and His Word that I have ever heard. She is a woman after God's heart and her bold witness for Him has the devil shaking in his shoes!

As we continue to transition into a new phase of ministry, please be in prayer for us both. We don't know exactly what or where...but we know it is BIG!

-- Benson

Another song for Luke

The other day I posted about two special ladies in my life who have written songs that were inspired by Luke. Today I would like to share with you the second song written by Hannah Ellis. I have watched her grow up from a little girl to a beautiful woman of God. I am so blessed to know her, to help raise her, and to call her my friend.


There’s I love you and then there’s down on one knee
There’s making plans and then there’s I take thee
There’s an argument and then there’s making up
There’s honesty no matter what

What is faith if we’re not faithful
Through the obstacles along the way
How we feel, compared to what is real
is defined by who we walk with everyday
there’s giving up, there’s knowing providence
Love is the difference

There’s we’re trying and then there’s six months along
There’s the crying when something seems to be wrong
Then there’s believing that there’s a greater plan
Even in the times we don’t understand

What is faith if we’re not faithful
Through the obstacles along the way
How we feel, compared to what is real
is defined by who we walk with everyday
there’s giving up, there’s knowing providence
Love is the difference

There’s the pain that we’re feeling, but then you’ve been there too
There’s a rugged cross and then there’s what you didn’t have to do...

What is faith if we’re not faithful
Through the obstacles along the way
How we feel, compared to what is real
is defined by who we walk with everyday
there’s giving up, there’s knowing providence
Love is the difference

three months without him here.

It's been three months since....


 I saw this face..

Prayed this hard....

Kissed these cheeks....

And held this miracle in my arms...

Oh, I miss him more every day.



Yet another angel...

This morning I came to work, logged on facebook and saw where sweet little Joshua's...a HLHS baby in IN...little heart had stopped. I prayed and prayed and prayed all morning. That sweet boy deserved to live...his mommy deserved to take him home.
Just a few minutes ago, Jill posted that Joshua went to be with Jesus in Heaven...with Luke, Cohen and just recently, Ewan.

Joshua makes two babies this week.

I know this happens every day...I'm not ignorant to the sickness and suffering in the world.
But these are two babies that I read about every day...prayed for every night, even before they were born.
Like us, they were given hope.

Today, I am mad at satan...
I have had ENOUGH.

In the name of JESUS, satan leave our babies alone.

Pray for all of us who will never know the joy of our babies eyes squinting in the sunlight...it is not a fun club to be in.

My first babies..

One of the greatest blessings of my entire life were the four years I spent as a youth minister. There are no words that I could write that would begin to describe the love I have for my first "babies." Over those four years, many kids came and went...but my "crew" stuck by me. They were there when I first started dating Benson, when we were engaged, when we were married, when we got pregnant and when we had Luke. They are my heart.

I have been so blessed by the love they have shown me the past few months. They have prayed for me and loved me like only the best of friends could. One of the saddest parts about Luke going to heaven was knowing that he wouldn't get to meet his "siblings" that had waited so long to meet him and lovingly named him "Barry." More than anything, I just wanted each of them to hold him and spoil him SO bad.

Two of my girls have been blessed with tremendous talent - like seriously, ridiculous talent. Each one wrote songs specifically for my sweet Luke. It is my honor to share with you one of the two. They both are two of the most special gifts I have ever been given. I know Luke loves them both.

Sweet Little Boy - Hannah C.

Hey little baby

The light of your life shined daily

You fought a battle you could not win

But war is victory in the end

I would have given you every drop I had

When the people cried, the angel smiled and said

Sweet little boy...

Heaven is your toy

The pain you had we wish we could bare

Hearts alone only rip and tear

The lives you touched only thousands know

The love of your life that Jesus showed

I would have given you every drop I had

When the people cried, the angel smiled and said

Sweet little boy...

You're blessed with eternal joy

No one...understands

But God has...His plan

No one...understands

But God has...His plan

Well I don't...understand

But God knows...His plan

Hey little baby

You're loved more than you'll ever know...

You're loved more than you'll ever know...

We love you Luke more than you could...ever...know.

I don't have the lyrics to Hannah E.'s song for Luke yet...but you can check our her music at http://www.hannahellismusic.com/ or on iTunes. I'm not just being biased when I tell you she is GOOD.

 

Also, lift up a prayer for the Petermann's today. Sweet baby Ewan that I posted about a week or so ago went to be with Jesus on October 3rd. It's a pain that obviously hits close to home. I know that Luke and Cohen are excited to have a new buddy...but I also know how bad his mommy and daddy miss him right now. Pray for them please.