Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Happy Birthday Cohen!

One year ago today, I sat behind a computer screen 36 weeks pregnant. I had just found out about our sweet Luke's little heart and desperately sought out stories and lives of other women who had given birth to a baby with a heart defect. It didn't take long for me to fall in love with Megan and Brent - a sweet couple who were anticipating the birth of their own little guy who they were told would be born with a broken heart.

So on June 7, 2010... I was one of thousands who kept refreshing the page to her blog, praying and pleading with God that Cohen would be born breathing and crying.... well, he was.

One year ago today, I had no idea that Megan would be the person God placed into my life to be the one who I would "vent" to on the bad days... the one who would email me on the 29th and 10th every month because she knew what living the space between was really like.... I had no idea that she would be the one who I would text when I found out I was pregnant again.... or that I would cry the biggest happiest tears when I finally heard the news that she was too (with TWINS!). I had no idea this girl I have never met would be one of the greatest instruments of healing in my life and that her sweet boy would mean SO much to my family and I.... but, he does.

One year ago today, my little guy was bouncing around in my belly when Cohen was taking his first breath on earth. I had no idea that both Cohen and Luke would share such similar stories or that they would both end up in Heaven together just a few weeks apart. Megan and I often say that we hope our little boys are "best buds" up there together. I had no idea when I saw that first picture this cute baby with dark hair and perfect little lips that he would end up being my son's best friend in Heaven.... but, he is.

So, Happy Birthday best buddy. While you are up there having an awesome birthday party with Jesus know that there are so so so very many people who miss you here. You are so very loved and so very special and I'm so glad to know that you can run around up in Heaven today and celebrate with no tubes, wires or broken heart. You are an amazing miracle and I can't wait for the day I get to meet you and give you the biggest hug and tell you just how you and your sweet mommy and daddy have meant to me.


  1. Wow. That was a great post. I, too, have never met Megan, but have followed her story closely & admire her strength & courage. I do not envy what the two of you have had to go through but please know that your story has made so many moms cling tightly to their babies. You two are making a big impact on women's lives..like my own.

  2. Kristen ~ this post was amazing...it brought tears. I know Luke & Cohen will be watching over their siblings their entire lives!

  3. I've followed Megan's blog since last year, just after they found out that Cohen's heart was broken. You are right, she and Brent are hard not to fall in love with. I stumbled across your blog through hers, and will spend hours (I'm sure) reading through the pages and posts. I'm sure that Cohen and Luke are celebrating big today! I appreciate your (and Megans) dedication to blogging and telling your stories. You are amazing.

  4. I've loved Megan's blog for quite some time I remember another blog I had followed asking to pray for her and baby Cohen (she was expecting him at this point) It was right after my son (another Luke :) went to heaven in late 2009. I enjoy both yours and Megan's stories and I'm so thrilled that your expecting siblings for Cohen and Luke!

    mommy of two in heaven Luke (October 2009) and Adyn (May 24, 2011)


  5. Great post :). I have read yours and Megan's blogs since last year as well, and they have been such a blessing to me...you and your sweet boys. Thank you so much for sharing your heart, and I just wanted to jump up and praise after reading your last post. It is so encouraging to see a godly woman with such faith. Claiming His promises and believing in His power is such a beautiful place to be, and I am grateful to have found a soul-sister, believing the same things for her sweet girl. Thank you :). Much love and many blessings!

  6. Saw your blog linked from Megan's and know I will spend time reading about your precious little boy too. He is a beautiful baby. Both of you are very strong women and inspiring mothers. Congratulations on your pregnancy. I'm sure you will have a wonderful time with your little girl!

  7. What an amazing post. I'm so pleased to 'meet' you. Praying for you in this special season.


  8. I love your blog! I just found it while, blog hopping! :) And I am a new follower!


  9. I came to your blog from megan..she is such an inspiration to me.. and I am again in awe of such an amazing example of a woman and mother. you!!! Wow..your post just pulled at my heart..I pray that I may be more like you in your faith. I recently lost my best friend through domestic violence...and even though i've always been very spiritual and active in my faith (married to a youth minister!)..going through such a loss really makes you more aware of the reality of heaven! The place we all are striving to reach! I prayed for megan and i'll add you to my prayers tonight. I know this post was a few months back but none the less... Know you are being lifted up in prayers by a fellow mama! Following you now...and looking forward to following your journey please post again!

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